meh. just meh. it's too hot for anything today...even sex.

shawna and i went to the head shop today. went to the tattoo shop 2 doors down from it, too. she got her lip pierced (i was her moral support). the artists there both assumed i was female...how i don't know...considering that the picture(s) at the top of the page is/are what i looked like today.

i get more masculine by the day, even without the testosterone. i suppose that i am learning what it truly is to society to be a man...let alone my own personal definition of male may be.

i look at myself in the mirror, and though my body is all wrong...i am seeing me as i truly am...as i was meant to be.

i just wish that it wasn't so difficult for the world to see me that way. shawna says that even without my clothes on, i'm all the man she'll ever need (and then some). i guess that's all that really matters.

and holy shit this guy just walked into the library and he looks like he's attempting to smuggle a frightened cat out the back and sides of his baseball cap. wow.

can you tell i have a short attention span? damn, he wasn't even shiny.

kage jonas